I tried to write a Christmas poem, but this one came out instead. So it will have to suffice. This time of year makes me think on a deeper level about loved ones. This one’s in honor of my mother. .She has been so good to me.
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Time Warp
Julie Buffaloe-Yoder
I felt sorry for myself
in the 1980′s when
I headed for college
.
with a taped up suitcase,
no handle, three faded
blouses, dollar t-shirts,
fifty nine cent flip-flops,
old jeans, then I opened
.
the suitcase; there
was a wrinkled
ten dollar bill
and my mother’s
best outfit,
far older than
anything I owned.
.
White polka dots on
a navy blue blouse,
huge sailor collar
with a tie,
studded pumps,
pencil skirt
.
nylons with lines
up the back, big fat
plastic red beads,
bracelet to match..
.
I put on that outfit
ready to fight anyone
who might laugh,
went to a keg party.
.
It was a hit—the rich girls
thought I was retro cool.
The guys thought I
had Bette Davis eyes.
.
The next morning,
I thought of my mother
dreaming of her girl
the only one in college,
clicking down echoing halls
instead of scrubbing them.
.
I thought of Mama’s
sweet red knuckles
washing, ironing, folding
her best, not dreaming
.
her girl was at a kegger
in that polka dot blouse
hopping up and down
like a purple-eyed fool
.
to The Time Warp
and Combat Rock.
.
.
.
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You made me cry, This is absolutely lovely, really perfect, Julie. I love how it ends, and I love that nobody laughed. What a wonderful mum.
Thank you, Jo! Yes, I am so fortunate to have her. She just paid for my Christmas this year *sniff* I told her not to send me any money, but she did. She has very little money, but she gives it all to us “kids.”
I didn’t realize it at the time, but I think your coming of age poem about the outfits might have subconsciously put this one in my head. I loved your poem. Christmas makes me think of memories, and that memory popped up. So thanks for the inspiration!
shalom, this is my first visit to your blog
i like this poem very much, the description and the feeling it arousing in me while reading. beautiful memories, and i think we fortunate when we recognise our parents humanity and personality early, and better early enough to not only feel gratitude but to express it too.
looking forward to new stuff
dhyan
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Shalom, dhyan! It is so nice to meet you. You have wonderful comments. We are “fortunate to recognise our parents’ humanity and personality early…to feel gratitude and express it, too.” That is such a good point!
I was just looking at your work, and the first thing I noticed was the form. Like an hourglass. Beautiful. I will return to read more. Thanks for dropping in and feel free to come back anytime. -Julie
Hi Julie. I like this one too. When our past times are a little rough and then discovered it wasn’t so bad. It seems to mean that much more.
One of the goofiest things our son would do when he was four was doing the time warp with his hands on his hips, it was just to funny his red hair and chubby cheeks. We had to play the soundtrack every time we would get in the car, we didn’t mind we probably seen it about seventy times.
Some of the wildest keggers I’d been to was at Northwestern in Bellingham Wa, crazy times.
OK… Julie, I’m letting to much of me out there. Excuse me, I have to go find my noise maker in a box somewhere.
Thanks for the trip down memory lane. It sounded like it had been memorable times for you too.
Did your mom ever find out?
Hi, George! You’ve got me laughing so hard!! I can just picture a little red haired boy doing the Time Warp. That is soooo cute!! I would love to have seen that, because I love kids.
Of course, I’m blending my punk reference with Rocky Horror there. I thought of a few punk songs that would work, but they wouldn’t make sense to people who have never heard.
College kids still do the Rocky Horror thing around here. The funny thing is that I met some recently who think it’s a “new” thing. We thought we were being unique in the 80′s. But didn’t it start in the 60′s? Or 70′s?
I don’t think mama ever knew. But you know how that is. Kids think their parents don’t know stuff, but they do. I guess I was pretty typical, though, especially for the times.
Let’s see…Bellingham Wa…I’m adding that to my list of places to visit. Ha! Ha! Thanks for your visit, Geoge. You made me laugh, which is a gift of gold.
This is incredibly sweet and it moved me to tears. What a wonderful tribute.
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Thank you, Kimberli! I hope you have a wonderful Christmas. -Julie
Beautiful and precious. We send them away with whatever we have and they make it work however they can.
Thanks, Brigindo! I was thinking of you after I posted it and hope I don’t worry you too much with my silliness. Your college son is way smarter than I was (or am). Actually, I wasn’t too bad…or I don’t think I was…ha!
Have a beautiful Christmas!
Julie, as usual this is delicious. I loved the image of you in the pencil skirt and polkadot shirt at the kegger, your mother keeping you wrapped up in her elegance even in the chaos that is college and youth. GREAT visuals in your writing.
Thanks so much, Cat. It’s great to see you! Have you finished painting completely?
Coming from a rural, coastal area, we had a different style in high school than the rest of the world did, aka jeans and surf shirts, maybe puka shell necklaces as a fancy accessory:)
At the time, we didn’t have access to cable or HBO or MTV. We didn’t live near any universities, so the college scene was pretty foreign to me.
I think it’s ironic that I was initially embarrassed by the outfit, but it turned out to be a cool “punkish” statement. Ha! Ha!
Thanks again, Cat. Take care!
Except for those few touch up spots you never get to, yes, I am FINISHED with that chore and am now ready to feel like I actually live here. How did you manage growing up without your money for nothing and your (insert your sexual preference here) for free? Of course when I grew up in the 70′s MTV wasn’t around yet, but in the early 80′s, man alive, it was how to spend all your waking minutes.
You’re so fun.
By the way, I saw the Rocky Horror Show in London in 1977 and came back to my high school senior class just in time to have it become a fad at the midnight movies. I dragged everyone I knew in high school, at one time or another, to the midnight movies down at the Oceanside Theatre near San Diego, CA. Those were the days, sigh…
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I’m gettin’ mixed up again, Cat, which ain’t hard for me to do. My comment to your comment is below:) -Julie
Julie, sigh, what an amazing poem. How vividly I can see the girl open the suitcase, and imagine the mother slipping in the items when the girl wasn’t looking. That is true love, so tender, raw, and wonderful. This poem is a Christmas present! I love it.
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Hi, Christine. It’s so nice to see you, as always. The sweet thing is that my mother slipped something in my suitcase every time I came home. It does make me want to cry to think about it. I wish I could give her something big. Buy her a house or send her on an amazing trip or something. In reality, she doesn’t want me to give her things.
And the things she gives me aren’t things. Garsh, now I sound like a Hallmark card, but it’s so true! Thanks much, Christine. I really appreciate your visits…and your work:) -Julie
Hi, Cat! You’re making me laugh again. I’m snorting here. I love it!
I don’t care about MTV (I guess you don’t miss what you never had), but I’m jealous about Rocky Horror in London!!! That would be awesome. We just dressed up and brought props to the local movie theaters.
Come to think of it, I might go this weekend. I should go do some research to revise this poem…ha! Thanks so much for the great comments and laughs, Cat. Have a good one:)
Absolutely beautifully written, your honesty, your strength is felt in this tribute to your mother. Our mothers only wanted the best for us, and gave what they had. Thank you giving to us.
Merry Christmas Julie, many blessings to you and yours—-
Thank you, Barbara! It’s great to see you. That’s quite a compliment and much appreciated. Merry Christmas and many blessings to you, too!
“It’s just a jump to the left…and then a step to the riiiiiiight! Put your hands on your hips” So fun!!! Touching and soft, but we see the guilt of a young girl…and that outfit!
Oh Julie, wonderful as always…
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Hey, Holly! Ha! Ha! I can just picture you doing that. Yep. You hit the nail on the head. Guilt. With a capital Guilt. Thanks so much! -Julie
i love the feel of this, the clarity of love it has, that odd thing where we return to where we started running from in the first place and see it for the first time….
Hi, joaquin carvel! It’s so nice to see you, too. That’s a wonderful way to describe it…returning to where we started running from in the first place and see it for the first time.” Yes! Thanks much for dropping in.
What I Know Now
Mom was a tigress
With me, saved me many times,
Finally let go.
So both are true here,
That I was saved and was trapped.
But she knew it, knew
What was happening.
That last time was bitterly
Real, would have died,
Or the other choice
Was military prison.
And I was so caught
In saving my mind
That I never saw the heart
Of her work for me.
I was too busy
Getting on with my own thing,
Needed to be blind.
Hi, Christopher! I see that you get it. That’s a beautiful poem. I especially like “I was so caught/in saving my mind/That I never saw the heart/ Of her work for me.”
But you know, the ending is a good point. I think in a way it’s good for high school or college age kids to be a bit blind. Maybe not totally, otherwise they’d be selfish. But they need to find their own place in the world and worrying about mom shouldn’t be a number one priority. Such is the sacrifice of a mother or father, huh? Thanks for dropping in!
Wow. This is so lovely. Your Mama is a wonderful Mama, I know. Good for her and good for you. Giving something to you makes her feel as good as you feel when you give something to Amber! Ain’t it wonderful?
I was out doing some Christmas shopping today and I found myself buying stocking stuffers – very silly things and candy with heads on it! – for my adult children, Josh and Amanda. They will have their baby in six weeks or so and, ever after, they will not be the babies. So I thought I’d give them one more Christmas as the babies with the stockin’s stuffed by Santa. I hope they enjoy it, but I know one thing, they won’t enjoy it as much as I will!
I miss my little boy (BIG actually) so much – he was here last Christmas but not for this one!
I’m thinking of you and yours Sistah! And lovin’ it. Merry merry. Happy happy.
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Sistah, you are gonna be one awesome grandma! That’s so sweet. I can just picture you buying those things for the “kids.” Ha! Ha! I do the same thing! I can’t wait to hear all about the baby and see pictures.
You’re right…it has been a circle in our family. I love giving to Amber. I hope I’m giving the things that really matter, too. Merry Christmas, Sis! I’m thinking of you. -Julie
hi julie,
oh this is so beautiful, thank you! it made me cry, thinking about my mother and all the things that she did for me. you truly are a gifter writer.
merry Christmas!!!
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Thank you, Odessa! And I look forward to reading more poems about your family:) You have very powerful work. It’s wonderful to see you in here today. Merry Christmas!! -Julie
I like the attitude that shines through this poem, excellent
Hi, Crafty Green Poet! You win the prize for the most beautiful header in blogland. Have I said that before? Probably. If not, I should have. And beautiful work, too. Thank you and take care!
Dear Julie,
Happy, happy holidays to you and yours. May 2009 be a whizzbang year for you all.
Thanks for all the support. You’re a simply amazing poet and clearly an amazing human being too.
J
xo
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Jo, I am so happy to have met you this year. I can’t even begin to express my admiration for you! It has truly been a blessing to meet you. I hope you have a wonderful holiday and new year to come. Love you, Sis! -Julie
This poetic work is life affirming – a stellar poem, reminding me what I love about relationships and life. Many of your pieces make me laugh and cry at the same time – this was no exception. Honestly, printed out – I could wear this like a veil, a covering in those times that call for quiet concealment and contemplation. Kudos, dear friend.
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I can surely say the same thing about your poems, K! And I again say how much of a pleasure it has been to meet you. I look forward to reading more in the coming year! -Julie
This brought tears to my eyes… I’m too sentimental!
Hi, Rachel! Thanks so much. You sound like me…so sentimental. I cry when I watch Bambi…ha! ha! I appreciate your visit very much!
I almost felt tears in my eyes. You can feel so much tenderness in it. Enjoy your Christmas!!
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Thank you, Annamari! I was just reading your blog again. It is beautiful. It has been so nice to meet you, and I look forward to reading more. Merry Christmas! -Julie
Oh Julie, I love this! I can see her packing in that polka dot blouse (gasp! LOL!). What love and tender care… and what a contrast–the old fashioned clothes at a kegger. “purple-eyed fool”… love it, love it.
(I afraid to watch Bambi; my kid and I would both blubber like fools!! And then he’d go out head hunting for hunters… eeeps)
Hi, Nan! Thank you! Head hunting…ha! ha! That’s so funny. I can picture you and your son sitting on the couch bawling. Well, actually, that’s what I do. But I always try to pretend I’m not crying for some reason. Nan, your visits are always a pleasure. It has been wonderful to meet you in this lil’ bloggy world of ours. Many blessings to you and your family.
Isn’t it great that a wrinkled ten dollar bill works as well as a brand new ten dollar bill? You can iron it all you want, and it’s still worth ten dollars, and today, that remains a lot of money. (“Ten dollars will help support two dozen characters in The Spirit House for six months,” says Eleanor, though I’m not sure of her reasoning, and what the ten dollars would go for.)
Always nice to visit here, Julie.
Geoff (and Eleanor, the new “Silent Movie Star”)
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Thank you Geoff and Eleanor! You’re so right. Wrinkled or not, it all spends, huh? Eleanor is always a star in my book! Thanks for dropping in. It’s always nice to see you. It has been a pleasure to meet you, and I will be back at your house soon:) -Julie
I was so touched by stanza 8, especially when I got to the line “instead of scrubbing them.” Those of us with parents who have survived a harder life than we do now, have, I think, a strong grasp of gratitude for our parents’ generosity. The concept of ‘a better life’ is inculcated early on, with stories of harsh times in the past as material for life lessons.
Hope you’re having a blast this holiday season, Julie, with your beloved family and friends. (I’m still on a sort of holiday break from posting. Will resume in several days, or probably by the start of 2009.
Happy New Year, dear.)
Thank you, S.L. I’m really glad you noticed that line. My mother has worked so hard all of her life. Yes, what you say about “a better life” is so true. She dreamed her kids would have it easier than she did. And we do! And now I dream my daughter will have it easier than I do:) I guess it’s all relative, though. We’re really blessed.
I hope you have a wonderful holiday, too, S.L. It has been a pleasure to meet you, and I can’t wait to read your new work. I’ll be there when you get back:)
who said it’s not a Christmas poem!? Good daughter/nice work….
btw–send this to the dead mule
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Thanks so much, Scot. I really appreciate it. Sorry I’m slow to get you up here. I hope you’re doing well. Take care. -Julie
Julie — This is beautifully written, very touching. You’re an incredible poet.
Thank you, Ruth. I appreciate your kind words. It has been a pleasure to meet you and read your site.
Anyone who can write a straight-up poem that ends with a reference to the Clash deserves to go to the head of the class.
Reminded me of my first year in college when I borrowed a pair of shoes from my roomate because I liked the way they sounded when they hit the floor while I jumped up and down to “Should I Stay Or Should I Go.”
Makes me wonder what I will sneak into my son’s suitcase when he goes off to college . . . and what he might do with it! Excellent work.
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Scott, I’m sorry it took me so long to say hello. My mind goes into another world sometimes (a really strange world…ha). But no excuses. Thanks so much! -Julie
nicely done julie..sometimes(well al the times) i end up speaking cliche’ “nice poem ” but again i find nothing more to say…i actually mean it…your older posts are also cool as your recent posts have been…
Hi, Narendra! Again, I have taken too long to say thank you. No, I don’t think your comments are cliche. It’s always great to hear. Thanks so much:)